I've been struggling recently with why I've had to lose my best friend of 10 years to another woman (the friend is a guy). They are engaged. He's kept it a secret from me for 3 years. His claim....I never asked so he didn't tell. Interesting, huh?? I've questioned all that I've done for him through the years....I swore no love interest would come above him in my life because look at all we had been thru together. But indeed...a "she" came between us. A "she" with baggage. A "she" that he has no plans to introduce me too. He's started a new life...a life that doesn't involve talking to me everyday or being concerned with my life. It hurts because deep down I thought he was "the one"...he just didn't realize it yet. It occured to me today that maybe He has moved "him" out of my life to make room for a forever best friend. Maybe I shouldn't look at it as an ending but more as a beginning.....yet remembering the memories.
I want to know that I'm going to be somebody's choice. I'd like to know when I'm going to be somebody's choice.
Everyday starts and ends the same. I need to accept it, stop hoping for something more.
When will I get my "happily ever after".......
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