Therapy???

So I have a team of medical professionals to assist me in this crazy little thing I call "my life".  Not really a team.....just a super psychiatrist and his fabulous office manager/daughter and my christian counselor (who was officially fired tonight).

I started seeing her first....almost 4 years ago (hard to believe) when my world turned upside down.  I saw an ad in the Black Mountain News that she was affordable.  Good enough for me....for you see I wasn't "sick enough" or "willing to admit" that I needed "professional help with medication".  Anyway her purpose was to help me to stop blaming God for punishing me....because I did, and sometimes I still do.  She did good at first....she had an anxiety program that I completed and she taught me to journal and she did help me to see that God is helping me become stronger....but lately......I just feel like she's making me feel....well...worse.

Like tonight....I paid $50 and left in worse shape than I was in when I got there.  She's very critical of my weight, my family, my job, my medications.....everything.  I have critical views already.  So after my appointment I marched back in there and broke up with her.  I'm not going to pay $50 to feel worse. 

Now don't get me wrong....I love therapy!!  Everyone should do it......it's kind of nice to have someone sit and listen to you for an hour...with no expectations...I don't have to be nice...I don't have to be happy...I can cry....I can curse...I can sob.  It's all about me.  But I shouldn't come out feeling worse.  So I took a stand tonight.  I can get my affirmations about God from other sources......

Kind of a boring post, I know.......