Like Johnny and June....

"I wanna love like Johnny and June....till the of time.  I wanna love.  Love ya that much.  Give it all up.  And when you're gone.  I wanna go too.  Like Johnny and June."  -  Heidi Newfield (obscure country artist)

Johnny and June Cash.  Sure they don't seem like Romeo and Juliet but take out the affairs, drugs, alcohol, prison and drama and what do you get....burning love.  Ring of Fire all the way to Jackson (my last Johnny Cash pun by the way).

I want to be the woman of my husbands dreams.  I want to be the woman who makes him sorry to leave me in the morning and eager to come home at night.  I want a love that burns with passion and thrives with friendship.  I've made the bridesmaid circuit....I've got 8 fabulous gowns that "I can just wear again and again"  (haven't wore them yet by the way)...I have the pictures of the 5 bouquets that I've caught and the embarassing garter ritual all with short men (for the record).  I just want one man to be gobsmacked with me....and preferably I would like to return the sentiment.

Oddly enough I'm not looking for the preppy boy with the polo shirt and khaki pants.  Even though I'm the most straight-laced girl around.  I'm looking for the Jesse James of men (minus the affairs, porn addictions and lies)...the man that's rough around the edges but cleans up good for church.  The man that is wild and fun.  The man that makes my parents shudder.  Now I've brought home some that have made them shudder....but for a totally different reason.  A memorable quote from my father was "is that the best you could do".  And yes I could, I was trying to settle. 

I have the wedding planned.  A quaint affair for 2 at a North Carolina courthouse of my choice.  I'll be wearing a subtle dress in black or red.  My mother is dreaming of a Steel Magnolias wedding full of "blush and bashful" or "pink and pink" but that wedding will never take place with me in it.  I want it on a whim.  See everything is planned....I just need my Jesse James, my Johnny Cash.....my country boy with a heart of gold.

On that note...got a online dating request from user name "bgdckbdby"...fill in the vowels.  Looks like I won't be "walking the line" (one last Johnny pun) anytime soon.